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I have been cracking hardy all along. I deal with the side effects of chemotherapy and don’t want to worry anyone with the challenges I face to my body; the daily insults of discomfort, skin eruptions, ulceration, hair loss, dry mouth and eyes. I have managed them all. Understanding the treatment’s rhythms as it worked through my system I thought I was going to romp through the second round. But this new drug: Docetaxel is a beauty.  I felt strong on the first two days. I guess the steroids in the mix kept me bouyant.  Yesterday I felt like the building had collapsed on me. Every bone and muscle in my body is aching, legs are stiff and walking a little uncertain. I am sitting in cool bicarbonate of soda, epsom saltas and detol baths to relieve aches, rashes and inflamation. I had boasted that I was not using the prescribed pain killers. Believe me I am taking them all religiously and admitting defeat by actually lying down. I hate what feel like wasted days – but I am surrendering for a bit. See my white flag. I trust that the battle goes on successfully in my cellular life as I sink beneath a cloud of endone.

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About pipsky

A creative, generous 64 year old with a PhD in Performance Studies trying to grow old disgracefully while working like mad in regional Queensland, squeezing the juice out of every day & still trying to find the balance that will maintain the quiet mind that makes her useful to others and nice to live with.

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  1. I love the way you can make your body (and its lifetime of cellular memory) such a sensitive barometer of the chaos that chemotherapy sets loose inside your being. Thank you, Jude, for the extraordinary honesty. There’s a potent new persona emerging within your ravaged self that’s full of life, compassion, awareness … May this voyage you’re on bring healing to match the enlightenment!
    With our love,
    Brian

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  2. All hail the endone Jude, you having been doing so bloody brilliantly. Even Inanna needs reinforcements sometimes:-)
    Beaming all I can in your general direction…
    >>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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  3. Oh Jude. Erishkigal and Innanna. you just think about the chemo cells nibbling away at the cancer cells while you soak in a sea of quantum possibilities. Sending good thoughts your way. You will emerge both Queen of the Underworld and Queen of Heaven.

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